I woke up this morning
November 22nd, 2008 -- Posted in dream, life, sorrow, unknown | 2 Comments »I woke up this morning after having a bad dream that’s making me feel a little strange today. The dream started with me looking very frail and sickly as well as continuously throwing up. I was in the doctors office and he came in to tell me that I had terminal cancer and would only be able to live a few more days. Most people would go do things they always wanted to do and things they were afraid of doing for fear of getting hurt, but not me, no I decided to go back through everyone in my past that I’d ever broke their heart or done something mean to and apologize for it. The thing is it had nothing to do with being forgiven. None of the people in my dream held anything against me and I’ve never been intentionally mean to anyone so it was basically me needing to get the sorriness off my chest. I’m not sure what this dream means. I haven’t done anything recently that I’m not proud of and I’m sure I haven’t done anything to hurt anyone. The craziest thing is I woke up feeling like a bad person. I hate that. Sometimes if I’m really angry in my dreams I’ll wake up super angry in the morning for no reason. I’ve even caught myself waking up crying in my sleep. Dreaming is such an amazing reaction. I guess I’ll have to try to figure out what last nights dream is supposed to mean. Maybe I am just stressed and feeling out of control of everything in my life. *Shrugs* who knows.
