February 21st, 2008 -- Posted in BBW, domination, fantasy |
I’ve been a little moody today for some reason. I guess that must be a girlie thing. I will be in the greatest mood and then all the sudden I will feel lethargic and crabby. I haven’t been feeling very good the last three days so I’m sure that could have something to do with it. Ever since I moved to California from Mississippi I’ve been unable to get rid of this cough and allergies I have. Seems a little strange considering Mississippi is considered to be the worst state to live in for people with asthma and allergies. Who knows maybe it’s just a coincedence since a lot of people I know are sick with a cough they can’t get rid of.
Lately I’ve been helping out with many porn shoots so I’m starting to learn the ins and outs of the business. I know there is so much more left to learn. I’ve also taken on the job of finding male talent for the girls of Hard Ten Entertainment. I put an add out on craigslist looking for some talent for this weekend and you wouldn’t believe the overwhelming amount of responses I received. It’s so unbelievable the amount of people that do porn. I feel like I’ve been desensitized to so much just by moving to California and I’m still naive to so much. Anyway one of the men that responded to the add on craigslist has done alot of porn before and he sent me a link to MenInPain.com where he had some sets located. I couldn’t believe the torture the men on this site went through and I couldn’t believe even more how turned on I was by it. I feel a little dirty being turned on by men getting their asses penetrated, while hanging from a harness, by a woman with a strap-on. I’m usually a dominant personality in my relationships but I’ve never had a man that was into any type of sexual domination. Even if it was me being dominated I would enjoy it. Pleasurable pain I think it would be. A little like getting a new tattoo. You go through torture of needles scraping your skin yet you want to keep doing it again and again. I just wanted to experiment a little lol. For now I’ll have to keep it in my fantasies, I’ll have to tell you a little more about those later……