Shameless Angel

I don’t have much to write about but I’m love this video and I thought I would share: John Mayer and Ellen!

I keep telling you all I won’t disappear and I’m back for good but that never happens. Every time I go on a trip I get behind and I usually don’t have internet so it’s hard to keep you updated on what’s going on. OK so I went through a little depression patch which I blogged about but it got a little heavier in the following weeks because my year has started out oh so well lol. I didn’t even make it to midnight on New Year’s before I fell asleep so no New Year’s kiss for me. Bummer! I wasn’t feeling very well but in the few days that followed I got really sick with a sore throat and a cold. My birthday was on the 6th and not only was I spending it sick, I was spending it sick in a bed in Vegas! I did get to shoot MsDawnP before I got sick though then she ended up sick as well and missed work I promised to finish Samantha Slopes site for her before the end of January but I wasn’t getting it done as fast as I would have liked due to sickness and no internet….. It’s almost completely finished and there are new updates up so go check it out! Just finishing up some links like a new blog and an updated bio.I shot a few sets of pics in Vegas even though I was sick I knew I needed to get them done to keep you all updated Didn’t complete my Valentine’s set yet but I’m working on it. I also bought a gym membership so I will be making a New Year’s resolution of going to the gym regularly and posting no more depression blogs on my blog. Sometimes I forget this isn’t just a personal blog for my thoughts. It’s a new year and even though it hasn’t started out that great I am going to try and make the best of it.
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I don’t know how or why I get depressed at times. I think right now I’m depressed because it’s the Christmas season and I’m not with my immediate family. I never understood before how people could get depressed during the holiday season but this year is the worst for me. The economy is so terrible at the moments I didn’t get to send out that many gifts and I’m surely not receiving any. I’m lame I know, Christmas isn’t about giving gifts or getting gifts but it’s always really nice! My depression usually makes me hide and scare away from the internet and my site and the sites I webmaster suffer, but I’m really trying to stay active in all of this. Some of you may have noticed that I’ve shyed away from you the last few says. Well this is the reason. It’s not about you so please don’t get offended. Sometimes I find myself feeling alone even when I’m around other people. I’m sorry to put it in writing lol. I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!

So I came across this video by reading another blog www.fatindustry.com and saw that several BBWs were mentioned in Spike TV’s New video about the world’s biggest boobs. I have to admit that to me it seems like the boobs in the world just keep getting larger and larger. Every day a new hot young teen pops up with a pair of HUMONGOUS KNOCKERS! However still to this day the biggest I’ve ever seen are Norma Stitz and Dawn Perignon sadly no mention of Dawn Perignon were in the video. Some of my favs still were including Samantha 38G and Ashley Sage whom I’ve done several blogs about my abnormal crush on her gorgeous tits <3 lol. Anyway I thought you’d enjoy this video cause I sure did The men walking down the street at the end and running into people trying to look at Norma’s tits reminded me of a trip to Vegas with Dawn and men were staring at us everywhere even wanting to take pics with her huge boobs! Make sure you check out her rack at www.msdawnp.com!

As many of you may have guessed I have an attraction to some girls and yet some I just can’t get into. And while I’m usually not into goth girls with short hair I find Dors Feline extremely attractive. Maybe it’s her big plump tits, or maybe it’s her long sexy legs, it may even be her tatoos that I’m attracted to but for some reason she really does it for me. I’m lying I’m sure it’s her perfect tits that do it lol. Anyway in the spirit of Christmas I figured I’d let you judge for yourself
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So I’ve been watching Chef Academy on Bravo and it came to my attention that one of the contestants is Jean Val Jean a foreign pornstar. Maybe there is hope for me being on reality tv? LOL

I’m back in the game, I know I’ve said that before but I really feel good again. I got moving out of the way. I no longer feel extremely overwhelmed by everything that is going on in life and I honestly feel like doing my site again and interacting with my fans. Before I was over it. I just wanted to leave it all behind. I was tired. Everyone gets tired of doing the same thing over and over again. I not only do my own site but I do other sites as well and I was letting everyone elses sites get into the way of mine. I’ve put my fans on hold in order to try to get other things off the ground. I’m trying to be active in my yahoo group again. I’ve also been on myspace again which I would go almost a month without logging into before. I am on twitter every day again, facebook, chubbyparade and fat-forums! It’s really hard to be active in all of them but I’m giving it a try again. I’m even logging into yahoo messenger. I think I will have a time that i stay logged in. I just finished a new site. I am waiting on it to get approval from Visa. Let me know what you think about it. It’s 6 sites on a pass, including some really nice ones

I recently told you all about everything that has been going on and how my computer was broken. I took a few weeks to see if it would dry out and work again but sadly it seems to be really fried and won’t power up at all. I’ve came to the realization that moving created a huge hardship in my work load. I used to work from home, had a studio in my home and all models came to me and I shot them. Now I have no studio, hell I have no home yet, so I am having to travel several times a month to get updates of models and once i’ve visited them all the vicious cycle continues, another model runs out of updates. I’ve been spending so much time and money trying to keep up with the sites and in the mean time I am not keeping up with the sites I’m webmastering as well as I should be. Mine included. However, I did spend some time taking new updates for my site and shooting a few new pieces for my store nomoregrannypanties.com. I got home on Wednesday at about 4 am and I am ready to get started being a part of the game again. I even logged onto yahoo messenger the other night for a bit lol. I’m having a little contest that I’ll get the full details to soon and post them but I’ve gotten a few mentions of Christmas as well. I’m not big on asking for much but I’ll try to put a list together with a new address for those of you that want to send a gift. I am thinking about making a few Christmas cards myself. Of course they will be featuring me. lol What do you think? All these pics are items I’m selling check them out.

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I stole this off of Samantha Slope’s myspace page but it was too real not to share!

The greatest irony of love;
loving the right person at the wrong time,
having the wrong person when the time is right
and finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life…

and sometimes, you think you’re already over a person,
but when you see them smile at you,
you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending
to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that
they will never be yours again…

for some, they think that letting go is one way
of expressing how much they love that person…
in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love
being held by someone else…

most relationships tend to fail not because
the absence of love. love is always present.
it’s just that one was being loved too much and the
other was being loved too little…

as we all know that the heart is the center of the body
but it beats on the left. maybe that’s the reason
why the heart is not always right…

most often we fall in love with the person we think we love
but to only discover that for them
we are just for passing time. while the one who truly
loves us remains either a friend or a stranger…

so here’s a piece of advice;
let go when you’re hurting too much.
give up when love isn’t enough.
and move on when things are not like before…

For sure there is someone out there
WHO WiLL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE…

Well I’ve had one hell of a week this week. I had a great roadtrip planned for Chicago to go to the Boo Bash held by LindasBigConnections.com and the trip started out great. We stopped in Oklahoma City and stayed at the Crowne Plaza there. I went to a BBQ place there called Earl’s Rib Palace and omg I had the greatest wings there ever! I got the hottest called third degree burns; they were so hot but oh sooooooo good! Some of the hottest wings I’ve ever had. So if you like your wings hot you should definately check out this place if ever in Oklahoma! Next on the road trip was St. Louis I spent the day at the zoo in St Louis which was beautiful and the best part of all it was absolutely free! Then we decided to head to the arches, which weren’t free but were still a beautiful site to see. The whole trip to Chicago was great until I actually got there. We got to the hotel and I immediately got on the internet to work on some updates I had to do for my sites and a few of the sites weren’t working. I tried to get into my control panel and was unable to login there as well. So I called my server support and the help told me he didn’t see anything wrong but wait a minute he couldn’t ping my site…. so he let me know they’d have to take a look at it and then they’d give me a call back. I waited several hours and none of the sites came back up and they hadn’t called so I gave them a call back. They let me know they had emailed me and that the hard drive on my server was fried and there was no way to get the information off of it. As several of you may remember, my sites were down just 3 months ago when my previous server provider decided they no longer accepted adult content so they suspended my sites. Now my current server has a fried hard drive! WTF what else could go wrong? I’ll tell you lol. That night I went to bed and laid my new mac laptop on the floor under the edge of the bed in between the two beds in out room since we had so much stuff from the vender booths no one was going in between the beds and I knew it wouldn’t get stepped on. I actually thought this out… I didn’t want it getting knocked off by the drunk girls I knew would be coming in at all hours in the morning. Well instead an ice bucket was knocked off the night stand from the other side, over a suitcase and several jackets and somehow landed right on top of my laptop on the floor. It’s completely dead, no sign of life. It’s been several days and it still won’t power on so I’m losing hope of it just “drying out” and coming back on. So not only are all my websites down and I have to upload all the content back onto a new hard drive now I have no laptop and am hundreds of miles from home! So I spent every bit of cash I owned and also put the remaining few hundred dollars i had on my credit card and bought a new laptop at Best Buy. I really needed it at this point. I actually cried while buying it lol. Although I really enjoy the new laptop it came with horrible circumstances. So I bring my new laptop back to the hotel (all the while trying not to lose my temper) and i log onto my personal facebook to get a phone number for my family in Chicago and to my surprise there is a very hurtful email from my aunt about how she knows what I do for a living and she’s of course not ok with it. The ironic thing is I had just told my mom and my dad what i do for a living on my trip home to Mississippi. Soooo I knew my stepmom had to tell my aunt, she’s the only one that would have done it and she obviously did it just to start shit about me. It’s a very painful thing to think a family member would do something to intentionally hurt you. I haven’t even had the courage to respond, I’m still so hurt by it. To make a long story short, all this crap is to explain to you why all my newer blog entries are gone. They were deleted with the server crash and I haven’t backed them up in a few months. I’ll try to catch up and be interesting again. Hopefully this week will get much better!